Artist – amykaidoh01
Pairing – No Sex in this chapter.
Rating – PG (But future chapters will become so NC – 17)
Disclaimer – The guys are so not mine, but it doesn’t hurt to dream.
A/N – This is the sequel to the fic I wrote about YoungJae. All kinds of shit will go down in this one…Don’t KILL me….And there will be more chapters to this one. I tried and tried to get all that needed to be written in one chapter, but as I wrote, the story became more and more complicated in my head. This is what happens when my vivid imagination takes over my god damn stories.
This is no longer a one shot story. I have no idea how many chapters it will take, but it will be dark in some places and full of love in others.
Secrets 2 – Chapter 1
Several weeks had past since that night. He sat on the floor in the living room looking from the image on his phone to Hyuk Jae and then back again. As far as he could tell, Hyuk Jae and Kang In had not been together that way since that night. It was almost as if that night had been a dream, but he had the proof right in front of him that it had happened. He closed his eyes, hearing Hyuk Jae’s moans and cries of ecstasy once again. To hear the boy do that with him – yes – he would do that for him too. Make no mistake about that. He would make Hyuk Jae scream his name. He closed his phone as he heard foot steps coming towards him.
“What are you looking at with such a smug look?”
“Nothing Teuk – why do you ask?”
“Nothing really. It’s just that you haven’t heard anyone calling your name for the last 5 minutes or so. We are all going out to the club for awhile. Are you coming?”
“Oh – uh, yeah. Give me a few minutes to change clothes. Meet you all outside.”
“Alright, well hurry up.”
He paused at the bedroom door as he watched everyone putting on their shoes and filing out the door. It would be soon.
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Hyuk Jae walked off the dance floor; exhausted and thirsty. As he sat down at their table, two sets of guys on the dance floor caught his attention; both putting him on edge. It seemed that Teuk and Kang In’s relationship seemed to be doing better. Hyuk Jae shook his head as he watched the two of them dancing closely together. He let out a deep sigh as he watched the two, wondering if that night had really happened between him and Kang In. Since that night, Kang In joked around more with him, but when it came to the ‘sexual’ jokes, the older boy seemed to refuse him. It use to be that Kang In would jump in bed with him. He would try to wake up him up by lying on top of him, kissing him. That didn’t happen anymore; not since that night.
As Hyuk Jae watched the two dancing, he began to feel used. Maybe what Kang In had told him that night had been just a rouse to use him to make Teuk jealous? He never would have thought Kang In to be so cruel. He swore to himself as he tore his eyes from Teuk and Kang In; letting them settle on the other two guys. They too were dancing entirely too close. It really hurt to watch the one person he truly cared about dancing and having fun with another. Dong Hae had his back flush against the older boy’s chest, smiling. As the music faded to a new song, Dong Hae leaned his head back, smiling and nodding as Han Kyoung whispered something in his ear. He watched as Dong Hae bit his bottom lip, eyes closing for a moment before giving a small nod. Hyuk Jae looked away as he took a sip from his glass. As he looked back towards them, he noticed they were gone. It was his own fault that Dong Hae had pushed him aside for Han Kyoung. It had to be.
His eyes fell down to stare at his drink, cursing himself for never letting Dong Hae know how he really felt. He finished the last of his drink, deciding that he would go to the bathroom and then head home alone. He rounded the corner that led to the hallway where the bathroom was; stopping dead. Standing there in front of him – Dong Hae and Han Kyoung – kissing. He backed away quietly, turning he headed straight for the club entrance; ignoring several calls of his name. He was a block away from the club when he heard someone calling out his name.
“Hyuk Jae – Hyuk Jae, wait up!”
“What do you want?”
“Where are you going Hyuk Jae?”
“I’m going home.”
“Why? We are all having fun. And you know that we don’t get to go out like this much.”
“Look Yeh Sung – just go back to the club and have fun. I’m tired and just want to go home.”
“Fat chance in me going back to the club, Hyuk Jae. It’s like 2 blocks back and I am not going back. We can walk home together. If you want to talk, I’ll listen. So let’s go home.”
The two boys walked in complete silence. Yeh Sung knew what was wrong with his friend. He had been standing there with a couple of drinks in hand when he saw what Hyuk Jae saw. He had been a little confused at how Hyuk Jae had run out of the club. He had thought that he knew about their relationship, but from his younger friend’s reaction, that wasn’t so. He watched as his friend walked ahead of him, his head hanging low. He hated this side of him. Yeh Sung sped up, stepping in line beside him and draped his arm around Hyuk Jae.
“Can we talk?”
“Look – I know what is bothering you. It does help to talk about it you know.”
“What the hell do you mean by ‘you know what is bothering me’?”
“Just what I said Hyuk Jae. I know. Things like this happen and we can’t do much about it.”
“You mean to tell me – that Kang In told everyone about it?”
“That stupid jackass.”
“Hyuk Jae, what are you talking about? I was talking about what you saw at the club between Dong Hae and Han Kyoung.”
Hyuk Jae stopped dead in his tracks; his eyes went wide as he looked at Yeh Sung. He had just messed up. He shook his head, running as fast as he could away from the older boy. Yeh Sung stood there watching as his friend ran away from him. What the hell just happened here? What the hell did Kang In do to Hyuk Jae? Yeh Sung took off after him, keeping a short distance away. He watched as Hyuk Jae ran past their building, heading straight for the park.
God damn those two could run. He had been following Hyuk Jae hoping that Yeh Sung would go back to the club. He nearly showed himself when Yeh Sung had wrapped his arm around Hyuk Jae, but stopped when he saw what seemed to be Hyuk Jae yelling and then running away. He ran all the way to their building, stopping at the entrance. He couldn’t run anymore. He swore under his breath as he walked into their building heading for their apartment. It seemed that Hyuk Jae had escaped him for tonight.
Yeh Sung wandered around the park, finally seeing his friend sitting on a set of steps concealed by the darkness. He stopped in front of Hyuk Jae, looking down at him.
“Can’t you just leave me alone?”
“You should know better than that Hyuk Jae. What the hell is going on?”
“Look I don’t want to talk about it, so leave me alone.”
“You may not want to talk but I am not letting you off that easy. I thought we were friends Hyuk Jae.”
“I know that Dong Hae and Han Kyoung’s relationship is bothering you. I saw that with my own eyes, but what the hell was that about Kang In?”
“Fine – I will talk to you about Dong Hae, but please, just forget about Kang In. It’s not something that I will talk to anyone about.”
“Alright Hyuk Jae, you win. I will leave the Kang In situation alone, for now. So talk to me about Dong Hae.”
Hyuk Jae dropped his head, his fingers rubbing his temples. He let out a deep sigh as he felt Yeh Sung taking a seat next to him. Damn, Yeh Sung could be so annoying at times. Hyuk Jae talked while Yeh Sung listened, his arm draped across the younger boy’s back. He listened as Hyuk Jae told him about the dreams, his feelings that he had harbored for the younger boy, and how Han Kyoung moved in on Dong Hae.
“Why didn’t you tell him how you felt?”
“I don’t know Yeh Sung. I guess I was scared of being turned away.”
“Do you still want him?”
“What kind of question is that?”
“It’s a very simple question Hyuk Jae.”
“I won’t pursue him. He seems happy.”
“I see. So you plan to move on then?”
“I don’t have a choice. I don’t mind being the only member alone. It’s probably better that I don’t have anyone.”
“What are you talking about? You’re not alone, nor will you ever be.”
Hyuk Jae looked up at his friend, a small smile forming on his lips. Yeh Sung really didn’t seem to get what he was trying say, but that was ok. It was probably better that he didn’t know. He continued to stare at his friend, wondering who it was that got to hold him. Yeh Sung pulled his head slightly back, curious as to what Hyuk Jae was thinking.
“Why are you staring at me like that?”
“It’s nothing really.”
“It must be something with that look on your face, so tell me.”
“Hmmm – I was just wondering – who you um – never mind. It’s not important.”
“Yes it is important. You wouldn’t have wanted to ask or know if it wasn’t. You wanted to know who I am with or who I have slept with, right?”
“Something – like that.”
“Well, let’s see –“
“You mean it’s more than one person?”
“I’m afraid so, although, I’m not sleeping with anyone now. I didn’t entirely get my joys out of it.”
“Who were they?”
“Oh, well I slept with Ryeo Wook twice and Hee Chul once. I could have slept with Teuk but I feared Kang In finding out. He tends to scare me most times. What about you?”
“I uh – no one.”
“Really? I would have thought Sung Min or Ki Bum. I mean I know that you have or had feelings for Dong Hae, but I do see how you are with Sung Min and Ki Bum.”
“No one. You said that you didn’t get your jollies entirely. What was the problem with Ryeo Wook and Hee Chul? I mean you slept with Ryeo twice.”
“Ryeo Wook wanted someone else actually. Who that was I don’t know and Hee Chul – well he was actually sleeping with Shi Won. I didn’t care too much for that. As for my jollies – I was the giving. Neither one wanted to be the giver.”
“Hehehe – let’s just say that I was always the ‘man’ and not the ‘girl’.”
“Oh – OH - I get it now.”
“You are way too innocent sometimes Hyuk Jae.”
“It must be the way I was raised.”
“That must be it.”
“So – do you have your eye on anyone now?”
“Actually I do, but I doubt it will ever amount to anything.”
“Why don’t you think it will ever happen?”
“Too many obstacles in the way.”
“Does he at least know?”
“No he doesn’t, and I doubt that I will ever let him know either.”
“It kind of sounds like you’re in the same boat as me.”
“I suppose so.”
Yeh Sung watched his younger friend looking around the park. He stood up momentarily to sit himself directly behind Hyuk Jae. As he sat back down he pulled at Hyuk Jae’s shoulders, causing him to lean back in between his legs. He rested his chin on his friends’ shoulder, sighing. Something was wrong here. Yeh Sung could feel it.
“You slept with Kang In, didn’t you?”
“From your reaction just now, I take that as a yes.”
“I – I don’t know what you mean.”
“Yes you do Hyuk Jae. I’m not stupid. That’s why you are pissed off at him.”
“I – you’re wrong Yeh Sung.”
“Hyuk Jae – don’t lie to me. You know that I hate being lied to.”
“I – so he did tell everyone.”
“I don’t think he told anyone Hyuk Jae. I guessed it on my own.”
“Well, when you got upset earlier and called him a stupid jackass was the first hint. Second, you were quick to deny ever sleeping with anyone. It’s alright Hyuk Jae. I won’t tell anyone about it. It’s no ones business what you do behind close doors. Do you want to talk about it?”
“Not really, but I tell you. He seemed to use me and that’s that.”
“Why do you think he used you?”
“Ever since that night, he has been different with me. I began to think that he used me to make Teuk jealous with all his sleeping around with the other guys.”
“I have a question.”
“What is it?”
“When did this happen? I mean you guys are never alone.”
“A few weeks back, I stayed after practice while you guys went home and watched a movie or something. He had stayed behind and I hadn’t known about it.”
“Wait a minute. You guys weren’t even home when that happened?”
“No. Man I hate this.”
“You don’t have to say anymore Hyuk Jae. It’s alright.”
“No. No, you’re right in it’s probably better for me to talk about it. I’ll tell you, but please don’t ever repeat any of this.”
“I won’t betray our trust.”
Hyuk Jae told Yeh Sung about that night. The more he told him, the redder his face became and the more embarrassed he was. He hated himself right at that moment. His first time and he gave it up so easily to Kang In. What was worse was the fact that it really did seem that Kang In had used him. The more he told Yeh Sung, the more upset he became. He finally lost to the tears he had been fighting. Yeh Sung looked on in anger as his friends’ body shook from the tears. He leaned forward more, wrapping his arms around Hyuk Jae, letting him cry.
“Do you regret that night with Kang In?”
“What do you mean?”
“Several things actually. Do you regret having sex in general or do you regret having sex with Kang In.”
“A little of both I suppose. I had not wanted my first time to be in a shower, nor had I wanted it to be with Kang In. The way that he said and did things made me forget what I really wanted.”
“What did you want?”
“What did I want? Well at the time, I still had a possible chance with Dong Hae. In all honesty I thought my first would be him. I had dreams about us being together, which was nothing like how it happened with Kang In.”
“What do you mean?”
“Well, as you had put it earlier – in my dreams I was the ‘guy’ and it seemed so right. With Kang In, I was the ‘girl’. It felt good and all, but it just felt wrong I guess. I don’t know anymore.”
“So you would rather be the ‘man’ of the sex-capades then.”
“Not just sex-capades Yeh Sung. I guess it would be more of a real relationship to me.”
“Hehehe – you’re right Hyuk Jae. You’re not the sex-capades type of guy. I imagine you’re the type of guy who would rather be gentle than down right raunchy sex.”
“Yeh Sung you have such a way with words. Hehehe – it’s rather funny.”
“Are you feeling better?”
“Yes I suppose I am. I guess it really does help to talk about things.”
“I’m glad Hyuk Jae. For future reference – don’t keep shit bottled up inside. If you have an issue – come to me. We can talk and find a solution.”
“Thanks. I will remember that. So shall we head back to the apartment?”
“Sure. What time is it?”
“It’s 2:37 a.m.”
“Damn. Yea we probably should get back. I am pretty sure they are all back and asleep.”
They both stood, stretching their legs and arms. Hyuk Jae watched as Yeh Sung dusted his ass off. He chuckled softly as he reached up, wiping the dirt off of his face.
“How did you manage to get dirt on your face?”
“Beats the hell out of me. Is it gone?”
“Yea it’s gone. Shall we?”
“Hyuk Jae – wait a minute.”
Before he had a chance to say anything, Yeh Sung grabbed him, pulling him into his arms. Yeh Sung buried his face into the crevice of Hyuk Jae’s neck and held him tight for a moment before letting him go.
“What was that for?”
“I felt that you really needed it.”
“I did. Thank you again Yeh Sung.”
“You’re welcome. Ok, let’s go home.”
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He opened his eyes as he heard the door open, watching the two figures enter as quietly as they could. They vanished momentarily into the kitchen most likely getting something to drink, before slipping through the living room and into their respective bedrooms. He laid there on the couch, his blood boiling. Was Hyuk Jae becoming a whore like Teuk and Hee Chul, fucking whoever, whenever and wherever? It was bad enough that Hyuk Jae was already tainted, but he could forgive that one. Kang In could be rather persuasive when he wanted something. He would have to make his move soon. There was no doubt in that. He got up from the couch, heading for the bedroom that Hyuk Jae had vanished into. Once his eyes adjusted to the darkness, his eyes scanned the three beds, finally finding what he wanted and didn’t want. His fist balled up as he walked in the direction of the bed that Hyuk Jae had crawled in. He stood at the edge eyeing the two sleeping figures. Sung Min had rolled over onto his side, draping his one leg over Hyuk Jae, and his hand gently resting on his cheek. He hated when those two ended up sleeping in the same damn bed together. He shook his head as he reached down and gently brushed a strand of Hyuk Jae’s hair out of his eyes, causing the boy to moan softly. He pulled away quickly and slowly backed away as Sung Min pulled Hyuk Jae closer to him. He backed out of the room heading for his own bedroom. Once Hyuk Jae was his, he wouldn’t have to worry about this shit anymore. He would have to devise a great plan to capture little boy wonder. As he laid down in his bed, his eyes fell on his phone, smiling. That picture should work perfectly. His brain began working on a plan as he slipped slowly into a deep sleep.